From The Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out 

The All-Too-Common Turn Around

Here lately I've found myself in a slightly complacent rut. Going through the motions, making decisions on my own--loving God, but slowly taking back certain aspects of my life. Once you've given over your life completely, it becomes painfully obvious when certain parts and thought processes are no longer under God's guardianship. Do you know how frustrating it is? All it takes is one wrong decision, one moment of weakness and its as if I'm brushing off the peace and protection that Jesus graciously gives. And its unavoidable. You can't pretend as though everything is OK, as though you can't feel the difference. Whats worse is--it's all in my hands. That's the bittersweet beauty of free will. God will never force Himself on me. He won't MAKE me give my whole heart to Him. It's up to me.

I give you my heart today oh God. I want out of this sickening complacency. Let my heart beat at the same time yours does. Let my choices directly reflect your thoughts. Let my actions mirror yours. I'm struggling God to KEEP you as my number one focus. I've found it too easy for my eyes to stray and Jesus I'm so sorry. God I want to be your hands, your feet, your voice, your thoughts. I want nothing in my life to be saying otherwise, let there be nothing in my life that hasn't been touched or inspired by You.

I'm sorry for my wrong choices.
I'm sorry for my complacent spirit.
I'm sorry for turning the heat down in my pursuit of You.

Burn in me. Captivate me. Cleanse me.
Use me.

I'm yours Jesus. My life is yours. My heart is yours. My passion is yours. My fears, worries, doubts, and discomforts--They are all yours God. My joy, my emotion, my accomplishments--all Yours.

...Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity...
--Hillsong United